Looking into the depths of his eyes, trying to find the truth,the way..the light...the distance gets further, the voices quieter, the darkness seeps in and takes hold of me, not wanting to let me go. reaching up to grab hold of something, anything to help..reaching into darkness..seeping in deeper..

"Broken - Featuring Amy Lee"BySeether


"Never There"ByStrata

The words touch me, the lyrics run deep, where was he when I needed him most, where were his comforting supporting arms, he said he would always be there for me, where was his love he promised would always he there..yet here I sit all alone, once again, just an emptiness consuming me, knowing if I call he will not be there, only being able to trust myself..my eyes close, the phone drops, the tears fall, the helplessness overtaking me, wanting to feel a comfortable numbness..needing to feel nothing, aching to close it up again under lock and key never to be opened again. knowing that all i ever wanted was his strong arms protecting me and truth in his words. he disappears into the night without a trace, coming to light at his convenience, expecting me to be there for him strong and untouched. knowing that anymore will lead him to breaking me. needing to find the strength within myself to move on and forget him, knowing he isnt good for me. he knows just how to play me, how to make me think we are one, close, in love, joined..then to get lost again in the shadows, leaving me to fend off the beasts alone.