There is something that sets me aside from most woman. Something that I have yet come to understand and that is how and why woman feel that they need a man. I am almost 29 years old..yes I know I am getting up there. lol I use to get approached with questions from family mostly (and friends) why dont you have a boyfriend? then as the years went by and I dated here and there the questions progressed to "when are you getting married?" "when are you having kids?".. gosh I love my family! And here I am thinking..wwooohooo slow down! I am only 2o something. Here's the thing... A man is not going to get me through college (his money might but help, I have my own) nor is a man going to get me a job, so why would I want to go man-hunting instead of job hunting? I want to succeed in life as a woman, a business woman first then as a wife and mother. I have goals, aspirations, ambition and determination and its not to be bare-foot and pregnant at home. Don't get me wrong I do want a man, but the key word is want, not need. I do want children, 3 at most and a wonderful man to complete me. But I am still baffled of how most woman I know, including some family members can not be single. They jump from one man to the other because they can not be alone. I know I may come off harsh most of the time and have trust issues..but there is a softer side. I am posting an email from a friend of mine, names will be bleeped out, but it made me cry..yes I cried.. He is my guardian angel..A man who I owe much of my sanity to. Words can not describe what he has been for me except for my Guardian Angel, his words never cease to amaze me, he is one of the wisest men I know. I know you will see what I see as you read his words to me.
My Darling Lady ****,

It may not be the manly thing to do, but I'll admit your response made me cry. So many times you have lifted my soul in times of despair and lost hope, so many times your arms surrounded me when I needed them - and yet you thank ME.

Your note reached me on a day when I questioned everything about myself - my value as a person, my employability, the meager talents I possess, my incredible ability to be the most obtuse at the absolutely worst time. Your words were a lifeline that I read over and over as the day progressed - and slowly allowed them to sink in until I had the strength to lift my own eyes from the dark abyss of the present to the brighter horizon. Thank you, my friend. Please never doubt the power of your own words to reach inside someone and make them feel and see and experience and believe things they did not know were there, or possible for them to see.

****, from our first words and until my dying breath I have and will tell you only the truth. And nothing has or will be more true than the truth of the beauty of you - of face and body of course, but more importantly of mind and heart and soul. I know you guard your heart and I understand the reason, but you have granted me the privilege of seeing deep inside it, and its beauty is also apparent to any who will take the time to read your journal.

Never doubt that you deserve happiness****. Never doubt that you deserve love. And if my role in your life is truly to be your Guardian Angel (a role I gladly accept with humility, honor and respect), then know that I will always be here to help you understand that. I have encountered many in my life **** - known some better than others, liked some, disliked others, was largely ambivalent about most and loved but a handful. But in honesty I can say that few measure up to you in beauty and potential and sheer will. I have been honored by your trust to know the struggles you've endured in life, yet you always manage to rise above the fray - strong and determined and focused in the end, your jaw set firmly but still with a twinkle in your eye if one knows how and where to look for it. I know it is exhausting to you to continually feel that you swim upstream, yet I remind you to look back over the obstacles you've overcome, the mountains you've conquered when lesser souls turned back - and then I ask you to look to the future, not with trepidation, but with hope. I know you have not yet achieved what you wish from life, that you still feel 'behind' based on society's arbitrary timelines, but again I remind you of what you've already accomplished to reach this point and that the challenges you face and will face are actually far less daunting than most of those you've already overcome. And then I remind you that you are still young and beautiful and vital. My own life - and those of most I know - did not truly settle until my 30's and that was perhaps my happiest decade - and others find their stride even later. You may be weary, but your life DOES lie before you, my friend. Seize it and make it your own in the same way that you take simple words without meaning and craft poems that reach inside your readers and make them truly feel.

You honor me with your words and with your presence in my life. If my own words help you to see beyond the present and instead to see the bright horizon, then know that they are only my way of saying thank you - and to give back to you for the great honor and privilege of holding and protecting a tiny part of your heart deep within my own. Come to me for help and support and strength, **** - know that you will always find them in my arms and in my heart. Know that you always will.

Thank you my dear friend. I wish you peace.

Till soon,

Your adoring Angel,