Wednesday, November 15

Slipping Past- Part 3




She goes home to shower and get ready for work. She goes through the motions but her mind is miles away. Remembering how she felt in his arms, so warm and safe and how she was able to forget about the rest of the world when she was with him. His smile is genuine and his personality is assertive, whihc attracts her to him even more. Her heart races at the thought of him.
Chiara wonders when she will see him again. Does he like her? Is he going to call her? He said he would when he left. She rushes off to work as questions race through her mind. She arrives at work and loses herself in her work for over ten hours. Throughout the day though, thoughts of the night before creep in and she smiles. Her stomach flutters. She is not sure when she will see him again but she hopes it is sooner than later. She leaves work exhausted that night, yet smiling as she remembers Gabe's charm and smile.
That weekend she heads off to Narragansett to see some of her friends. They go to the beach, have drinks, watch movies late at night and laugh until beer comes out someone's nose. She has a great time at the condo away but during that whole time he is there, constantly, in the back of her mind. Why is he there? Why is he having this affect on her? She drives back home, enjoying the sun beating down on her, as she giggles at memories. The Fourth of July is only days away and she has plans to see some friends and family.
The next day she goes to a picnic with her best friend and enjoys a great day of catching up with old friends, meeting new ones and relaxing. The long day concludes with a hour long firework display over the town's marina. As she sits and watches the fireworks she wishes she was sharing the moment with Gabe.
On the Fourth Chiara gets a surprising yet long-awaited phone call from Gabe. He asks her if she wants to go to the beach or swimming. She happily accepts, throwns on her bikini and she meets at his place. Her heart skips a beat as she sees him standing there, waiting for her. They jump into his vehicle and takes them to a lake. She has never been to this lake, it is nice and peaceful with only a few people around. They lay down a blanket and relax in the now partly cloudy weather. They chit chat here and there in between reading a book. She feels safe next to him and admires his long, athletic body. As they lay there and enjoy each others company they play feetsies. She enoys the light flirting.
While they are there at the lake more people come and ruin the quiet, relaxing atmosphere. He mentions to her that he is going to go for a swim and would she like to join him? She looks at him in bewilderment. Chiara is not one to swim in lakes, actually she is damn near afraid of it and has been for years. She looks around at the people who arrived at the lake; loud, abnoxious and drinking. She decides to go for it and go swim with him. She adjusts her bikini as she gets up and walks to the water with Gabe. He laughs at her reluctance to jump in the water with him as she explains her fear of water to him. As they swim out to a small island about 10 minutes out she warns him that if anything touches her she will die of a heart attack. He laughs. Chiara changes strokes and as she is doing the side stroke Gabe disappears under the water, unknow to her, and grabs her leg. Chiara screams! She gets a mouth full of water and watches Gabe as he comes out of the water laughing. She finally collects herself after having the uncontrollable urge to drown him, continues on swimming laughing and cursing him.
Chiara and Gabe arrive at the small island and rest for a bit. A fish nips her thigh and she yelps out. Another reason why she stays out of lakes. They sit there and talk about his swimming experiences here with his friends and she shares some of her stories. They laugh together as they enjoy the stories. He asks her if she is ready to swim back. She answers him "as ready as I will ever be" he laughs and tells her he said that before the last time he swam here. They head back to shore and to the blanket and dry off. They agree they both would like to leave and head back home. A storm is starting to brew outside and he invites her in to his condo, she joins him.

Slipping Past- Part 2









The salt from her tears stains her face. She gently wipes them away. She tries to think of happy thoughts, the times her and Gabe shared together. Is she just a silly girl in love, chasing a dream? He is very unpredictable, it is frustrating. Sometimes he responds right away to her, other times it is hours or a day. Other times of course she hears from him when she least expects it. She wonders why she can not control her heart and order it to stop loving this man. They have not known each other long which confuses her even further because she never falls quickly for a man. What is it about this one that breaks her down so easily? He is, however, just a man. She thinks to herself that he has brown eyes not blue or green eyes that she is usually drawn to.
Chiara remembers clearly the moment they met. He opened his condo door and there he stood 6'4" tall. Her heart stopped beating, her palms became sweatty as she stood there momentarily dazed. The chemistry and electricity readily apparent. Oh, yes he was all man. His smiling brown eyes held hers as they hugged and she returned the smile. They laughed together as they complimented each other on their appearance and looks, they both agreed the other looked much better in person than in photos. It was a pleasant surprise for them both. They talked for a bit at his place before heading out to dinner at the restaurant she had chosen.
Chiara remembers an explicit dream she had just nights prior to laying eyes on Gabe. She had just pretty much sworn off dating for good when this dream came to her. She was walking outside in her backyard when she heard a lot of frogs croaking which did not make much sense since she was not near a pond. She looked around and saw some frogs sitting around in the grass like they owned the land. She laughed to herself as she remembered the fairy tale growing up of a girl kissing a frog and how it turned into a prince. Such a childhood fantasy. She paused as she stood there and looked down at this one frog in particular. She bent down and picked it up and it sat in her hand not fighting to jump off. She looked around, giggled and kissed the frog. Nothing happened. She placed the frog gently back to the ground and laughed as she turned and walked away back to her place.
As she walked away she failed to see what was going on behind her. The frog had started turning different shapes and sizes and mutating. She walked into her place and tidying it up. She hears a knock on her door minutes later and hesitantly goes to the door knowing she is not expecting anyone. She opens the door to a sight that nearly knocked her off her feet. Standing in front of her is a tall, athletic man, yet he was faceless. She was scared. She did not know what to think nor what to say to a faceless man. He extended out his arms to her and motions her to him as she started to slowly back away into the safety of her place. She hesitates not knowing what to do, stuck in a daze; drawn to him but scared at the same time. He slowly steps forward and embraces her and pulls her to him gently, she leans in and loses herself in his arms shocked at her own actions. Never in her life has she felt so complete, so safe, content and loved as she feels now at this moment in this faceless, strangers arms.
Chiara awoke moments later, her heart was racing and she was not sure where she was. The dream was so life like that when she saw she was in her bedroom she felt lost. Then is a huge emotional rush the dream came crashing down on her, filling her with hope.
As Chiara sits at a table outside with Gabe at the restaurant later the next evening she feels electricity flowing through them. She listens as he speaks, his voice so soothing, his figure having a strong resemblance to the man in her dreams. She slowly and quietly exhales as she tries to keep her composure. They continue to converse intimately and laugh and enjoy each others company.
After dinner on the ride back to his place he invites her in for movies and a drink and she coyly accepts. They go back to his place he pours them each a glass of a nice French Pinot Noir as some action movie starts in the background. They end up back in the living room conversing candidly in between watching the movie. As the movie continues and the warm wine relaxes the two they move closer and closer together on the couch cuddling together. As they continue to watch the movie  Gabe slowly inches his lips close to Chiara's neck and she can feel his hot breath on the back of her neck; his lips make their way to her neck and he slowly starts kissing her. Her breathing stops. His touch burns her to her core. She slowly turns her head, he gently cradles her face in his hands as he brushes his lips to hers. The attraction overwhelming them both. He starts slowly tracing her lips and brushing them against hers. He then slowly parts her lips as he kisses her deeper and then slips his warm tongue into her sweet mouth. She moans quietly as the passion and emotion exchange within. They continue kiss and hold each other tight throughout the movie and do not notice when it ends because they are so enthralled with each other. Both seeming so content.
Gabe, the gentleman that he is, invites her to stay so she does not have to drive because it is now about 3 a.m.and the second movie has ended. She accepts his invite to spend the night. They awake in the morning, kiss each other, and get ready to go to work. He tells her he will call her and that he had a great time. She lets him know she had a great time as well and that it was the longest first date she had ever been on. They kiss and part ways.

Wednesday, September 6

Slipping Past-Short Story Part 1




On the hot, muggy August night she sits outside on her deck looking up into the dark, midnight sky and seeing all of its millions of stars. She sits deep in thought of her lifes events both past and present. A smile slowly curves her lips as she remembers the happy times with her friends and family, so many memories. A tear then slowly trickles down her cheek as thoughts of friends and family passed slowly creep in. Remembering she must take the good with the bad.
She is so full of mixed emotions her heart aches with the turmoil of it all. She remembers clearly of the night before and how she spent it with a man she holds close to her heart. The touching, the kissing, the feelings of passion; how his lips fit perfectly to hers, how his smile and presence melts her heart. The feeling of her body brushing up against his still fresh in her mind and the breath-taking, burning sensation her body felt as he touched her all over; her body now tingling at the thought. The memory of his tongue licking over her freshly shaved lips causing her to ache for him to be in her again.  A smile curves slowly and only halfway knowing she fell for a man she can not have. She remembers the feeling of content she had when she awoke next to him in the morning.
She looks up at the millions of stars before her, twinkling proudly. She ordinarily is an assertive, optimistic woman however, every human slips past in to the sadness at times. Staying strong is what she does best she reminds herself, but a weak moment is what she now needs. It is always best to keep the strong woman for the public appearance. She slowly shakes her head at her own thoughts, wishing she could find the strength she now needs to help her.
The wind lightly blows across her face; the sounds of bullfrogs and crickets slip past and the rustle of something in the nearby woods in the background. She thinks to herself how nice it would be to be sharing this with the man whom has captured her heart; how desperately she wished to know how he felt about her. She leans back onto her  lounge chair with her face up to the moon as she slowly closes her eyes as the tears slide to the side of her face into her hair. She breathes in and out slowly, decreasing her heart rate as she tries to temporarily distress herself.
The slightest thought of not having this man in her life brings the feeling of dread deep into the pit of her stomach and heart. She earnestly tries to push these thoughts from her mind but unable to because of the truth it may hold. Goosebumps form on her tanned, toned arms as the breeze blows over her again. Her hands move to her arms where she gently rubs them up and down to rid them of the goosebumps. She opens her eyes to look up at the millions of stars and wonders which one is hers? What if the North Star burns out? What if one of the stars that make up the Big or Little Dippers burns out? They all do eventually burn out.
She sighs.
She sees a falling star and holds her breath without realizing it. Should she make a wish or not? Should she wish for love? Is she loveable? Does she deserve to be loved? Will it ever happen? Her mind goes off with questions. Perhaps wishing for world peace would be more effective. She closes her eyes and makes a wish, and then she slowly opens them again. Time ticks by as she lays there and watches the sky. It has been a very long time since she has done just this, relax and think. Enjoy Mother Nature and what is has to offer.

Monday, June 26

Whispers In The Night


he whispers to me in the night

how much he loves me

he whispers to me in the night

how much he cares as he caresses my body

his hands slide up my arms to my neck

and touch my soft spot as he kisses me hungrily

he whispers to me in the night

how much he wants me

his lips trail up my stomach missing nothing

he whispers to me he needs to be in me

as he stares into my eyes

i whisper back to him

I am all yours, take me as I am

copyright 2006 lac

Wednesday, May 24

Heartfelt words..



“Ancient lovers believed a kiss would literally unite their souls, because the spirit was said to be carried in one's breath.”

“When he kisses you he isn't doing anything else. You're his whole universe..and the moment is eternal because he doesn't have any plans and isn't going anywhere. Just kissing you...it's overwhelming.”

“When I saw you, I was afraid to meet you... When I met you, I was afraid to kiss you... When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you... Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you.”

“The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.”

“Stop acting as if life is a rehearsal. Live this day as if it were your last. The past is over and gone. The future is not guaranteed.”

“Falling in love with someone isn't always going to be easy... Anger... tears... laughter.. It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I'm sure of it.”

“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.”

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”


“The past is a foreign country; they do things differently there.”

“You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.”

“Sometimes you wake up. Sometimes the fall kills you. And sometimes, when you fall, you fly.”

Thoughts..

there are many thoughts that cross my mind
it is amazing to me how the people who "claim" to love you the most
go out of their way to hurt you.
there was a saying I use to live by "keep your friends close, your enemies closer"
I guess you need to see who's lieing to you as a friend. pretty sad
that there are pathetic people out there who do this, but they are there.
It amazes me how much a person may go out of their way in life
to waste their time trying to make someone else's life miserable, and fail in the end.
So much time and energy wasted on negativity. Karma is a bitch.
I don't wish to be negative so I will not any longer.
There are many trials in life, some are not so easy.
I love life, regardless of its downs and I know that keeping
a positive attitude will only continue to bring me a positive life.
This picture I chose for this entry has a lot of meaning to me.
I am a free woman, that is going in great places and awaiting
great things to happen to me. I work hard and I love my family
and friends and I know who my friends are. They are part of me
part of my happiness, part of my success, part of my life.
People enter and leave your life for a reason, dont forget that.
I am a very happy woman, with great friends & family surrounding me.
Never will I take them for granted.
I have met someone who has touched my life in a positive way
I welcome it, I treasure it.
I hope everyone can be as lucky as I
to find that one, keep the one close
treasure the one, and live a happy life.
People need to move on, grow up and live their own lives
the past is only a distant memory, easily forgotten
copyright 2006 lac
“We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.”

Simplicity

Simplicity is in his green eyes when I look into them
It is in his music when he plays his guitar for me
It is what I feel when I am with him
Nothing else exists when it is us
His touch is perfect, his voice soothing
His smile ~ contagious
His big hands covering my body
touching all the right places
His kiss leaves me breathless
the feel of his tongue makes me hunger for
what I know is to come
Nothing is better than to feel
his skin up against mine
Warming me, relaxing me
Exciting me
copyright 2006 lac

Wednesday, May 17

In light of Mother's Day

ps. this is how babies are made!

Why do they call it morning sickness if I feel nauseated all day long?
About three quarters of pregnant women have nausea (and sometimes vomiting) during their first trimester. For some, it's worse in the morning and gets better over the course of the day, but "morning sickness" can strike at any time. The nausea usually starts around 6 weeks but can come on as early as 4 weeks and tends to worsen over the next month or so. About half of women who get it feel complete relief by about 14 weeks. For most of the rest, it takes another month or so for the queasiness to ease up, though it may return later and come and go throughout pregnancy.
What causes nausea and vomiting during pregnancy?
No one knows what causes nausea during pregnancy, but it's probably some combination of the many physical changes taking place in your body. Some possible causes include:
• Rapidly increasing levels of the hormone hCG during early pregnancy. No one knows why it contributes to your nausea, but the timing is right: Nausea tends to peak around the same time as your levels of hCG. Estrogen is thought to play a role, too.
• An enhanced sense of smell and sensitivity to odors. It's not uncommon for a newly pregnant woman to find that she's now overwhelmed by the smell of a bologna sandwich from four blocks away, for example, and that certain aromas instantly trigger her gag reflex. This, too, may be a side effect of rapidly rising amounts of estrogen in your system.
• A tricky stomach. Some women's gastrointestinal tract is more sensitive to the changes of early pregnancy. One study even found an association between h. pylori (a gastrointestinal bacteria that can cause ulcers) and severe nausea during pregnancy, although no one knows why the two might be related.You may have heard that morning sickness can be caused by a B vitamin deficiency. While taking a vitamin B6 supplement does seem to help ease nausea in many pregnant women, that doesn't mean they have a vitamin deficiency. In fact, at least one study has shown no significant differences in the levels of B6 in women with morning sickness and those without. No one knows why B6 is helpful. There's also some evidence that taking a multivitamin at the time of conception and in early pregnancy helps prevent severe morning sickness, but again, no one knows why.Some researchers have proposed that certain women are psychologically predisposed to having nausea and vomiting during pregnancy as an abnormal response to stress. However, there's no good evidence to support this theory. (Of course, if you're constantly nauseated or vomiting a lot, you certainly may begin to feel more stressed!) Are some pregnant women more likely than others to feel nauseated?
You're more likely to have nausea or vomiting during your pregnancy if any of the following apply to you:
• You're pregnant with twins or higher multiples. This may be from the higher levels of hCG or other hormones in your system. You're also more likely to have a worse case than average. On the other hand, it's not a definite thing — some women with twins have no nausea at all.
• You had nausea and vomiting in a previous pregnancy.
• You have a history of nausea or vomiting as a side effect of taking birth control pills. This may have something to do with your body's response to increased levels of estrogen.
• You have a history of being susceptible to motion sickness.
• You have a genetic predisposition to nausea during pregnancy. If your mother or sisters had severe morning sickness, there's a higher chance you will, too.
• You have a history of migraine headaches. Will my nausea affect my baby?
The mild nausea and occasional vomiting commonly associated with morning sickness won't threaten your baby's well-being as long as you're able to keep some food down and drink plenty of fluids. After all, for most of the first trimester, you're just talking about a tiny embryo that doesn't need too many calories. If you find that you're unable to eat a balanced diet, it's a good idea to take a multivitamin (one with a low dose of iron or no iron if that mineral makes your nausea worse) to make sure you're getting the nutrients you need.It's usually not a problem if you don't gain any weight in the first trimester, as long as you're not starving yourself and able to stay hydrated. Have faith that your appetite will return soon enough and you'll begin gaining weight. If I don't have morning sickness, does that mean I'm more likely to have a miscarriage?Not necessarily. It's true that a number of studies have shown that women who have miscarriages are less likely to have had nausea. (If your baby or your placenta is not developing properly, you'll have lower amounts of pregnancy hormones in your system, so it follows that you would have little or no nausea.) But there are also plenty of women with perfectly normal pregnancies who manage to escape nausea during their first trimester. Count yourself lucky and don't obsess about it if you're not suffering! What can I do to get relief?Not all of the following suggestions are supported by hard evidence, but they're all commonly recommended by obstetricians and midwives, and many women swear by them.
• Try to avoid foods and smells that trigger your nausea. If that seems like almost everything, it's okay to just eat the few things that do appeal to you for this part of your pregnancy, even if they don't add up to a balanced diet. It might also help to stick to bland foods and try to eat food cold or at room temperature, which tends to have less of an odor than hot food.
• Keep simple snacks, such as crackers, by your bed. When you first wake up, nibble a few crackers and then rest for 20 to 30 minutes before getting out of bed. Snacking on crackers may also help you feel better if you wake up feeling nauseated in the middle of the night.
• Eat small, frequent meals or snacks throughout the day so that your stomach is never empty. Some women find that carbohydrates are most appealing when they feel nauseated, but one small study found that high-protein foods were likely to work better.
• Try to avoid fatty foods, which take longer to digest, particularly during pregnancy, when your stomach takes longer to empty. Also avoid rich, spicy, acidic, and fried foods, which can irritate your stomach and digestive system.
• Try drinking fluids primarily between meals. And try not to drink so much at once that your stomach feels full, as that will make you less hungry for food. A good strategy is to sip something frequently throughout the day and aim to drink about a quart and a half altogether. If you've been vomiting a lot, try a sports drink that contains glucose, salt, and potassium to replace lost electrolytes.
• Give yourself time to relax and take naps if you can. Watching a movie (preferably not one about food!) or visiting with a friend can help relieve stress and take your mind off your discomfort. Or try hypnosis. While there's no definitive evidence that it helps with morning sickness, it's been shown to be effective in combating nausea during chemotherapy.
• Try taking your prenatal vitamins with food or just before bed. Or ask your healthcare provider whether you can switch to a prenatal vitamin with a low dose of iron or no iron for the first trimester, since this mineral can be hard on your digestive system.
• Ask your provider about taking vitamin B6. No one knows why B6 eases nausea in some women, but research indicates that it works for a number of women and it's been consistently shown to be safe when taken in commonly recommended doses. The usual dose for treating morning sickness is between 10 and 25 milligrams three times a day, but check with your provider before taking anything. She can tell you how much to take and whether or not the amount in your prenatal vitamin should count as one of the doses. (The amount of vitamin B6 in supplements varies by brand.)
• Try ginger, an alternative remedy thought to settle the stomach and help quell queasiness. See if you can find ginger ale made with real ginger (most common sodas aren't). Or grate some fresh ginger into hot water for ginger tea, or see if ginger candies help. A few studies found that taking powdered ginger root in capsules provided some relief. (Ask your provider before taking ginger supplements. As with many other things that are helpful in normal amounts, the effects of megadoses are unknown.)
• Try an acupressure band, a soft cotton wristband that's sold at drugstores. This simple and inexpensive device, designed to ward off seasickness, has helped many pregnant women through morning sickness (although some research suggests that it may be largely a placebo effect). You strap it on so that the plastic button pushes against an acupressure point on the underside of your wrist.
• Ask your provider about a device that regularly stimulates the underside of your wrist with a mild electric current. The device costs about $75 and is available by prescription only — but it's safe, and research has shown that this "acustimulation" technique work well for some women.
• If nothing else works for you, ask your provider about taking an anti-nausea medication that's considered safe during your first trimester.
What if I just can't keep anything down?
Call your provider if you haven't been able to keep anything (including fluids) down for 24 hours. (If you're newly pregnant and don't yet have a doctor or midwife, go to the emergency room.) You may have a condition called hyperemesis gravidarum (literally, "excessive vomiting in pregnancy"). This condition can be difficult to manage. But the sooner you're diagnosed and begin treatment, the more likely you'll be able to avoid severe symptoms.Your caregiver will probably want to give you some intravenous fluids right away, since you'll most likely be seriously dehydrated. Then she'll need to do some tests to check your electrolyte levels and make sure no underlying disease is causing your constant vomiting. Depending on your condition, you may need to be hospitalized for a few days so that you can continue to receive IV fluids and medication.Many women feel much better after they're rehydrated and are able to control their symptoms with anti-nausea medication. In rare cases, you'll need to continue to receive intravenous therapy on and off either in the hospital or at home. If inadequately treated, this condition can result in chronic dehydration, weight loss, malnutrition, and other complications for you and your baby. For more information, visit the Hyperemesis Education and Research Foundation Web site.

Sunday, May 14

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all mom's and mom's-to-be of course!!!
we help create life~
we carry the life inside of us~
we give birth to the new life~
how precious we all are~


Sunday, May 7

The Scent of After Sex



The musky scent fills the air as our bodies lay entwined and satiated on our bed.
the sweet smell of sweat and sex
i breathe it in deeply through my nose as i look at you and smile
my heartbeat slowing down
my skin tingly with satisfaction
your hands softly caressing my body
the sheets twirled around our feet
too lazy to move them
my body touching yours, feeling its warmth
relaxed from our love-making
you turn to me and smile
you bring me close to you and start kissing me again
your arousal sprining forth again
you whisper in my ear how you want me again
you ask me if i am ready for you
and my reply is to slip you inside of me
our bodies move as one
the scent of our sex increases
as our bodies satisfy each other
i fall on top of you
laying there in complete happiness
we are completely spent and satisfied
there we lay~ with our scent of sex...
copyright 2006 lac

Friday, May 5

Once upon a time...

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
He said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her foreve.
...and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again
he replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face
the boy grabbed her arm and said... You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

Tuesday, May 2

The Sensual~ Sexual Me


The Sensual~ Sexual Me

the small curvacious body, the long lean legs

the gentle curve of the hips and the tight buttocks

the high perky breasts, the sensual~sexual me

the full package and nothing less

age like fine wine~ perfection at its best

the soft sudden moans he evokes from within

as his hands caress the spots, the nipples harden

he aims to please, he does his best

he waits until i scream to finish the rest

a true man in all he says and does

in and out of the bedroom~ he is a real man

he makes me whimper, he makes me beg

me urges me on, to please me multiple times

a man every women dreams about~ in my bed

what more could I ask for~ he is as much of a dream

as he is my reality

he brings out my sensual~ sexual side

and delights in what i teach

his alluring green eyes, spark my appetite

his lust for me and willingness to learn

send me over the edge...

this part of.. my sensual~sexual me

copyright 2006 lac

I Will Survive--A song I love by Enrique

Me with K.P.S...in S.C
You like to think that you'll be the only one who understands my needs
And you tell everyone that i can't live without you even for one day
but who gave you the right to talk about the way i feel so deep inside
Now i realize you were never mine, we were never right
Baby you will find
I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
Just give me time
I will get over you
I will survive
No matter what you do
Just wait and see i will get over you
cause baby I will survive
cause baby I will survive
What makes you think that i don't see the way you made a fool of me
To laugh behind my back
This what goes around i promise you comes back
Now i realize you were never mine, we were never right
Baby you will find
I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
Just give me time
I will get over you
I will survive
No matter what you do
Just wait and see i will get over you
cause baby i will survive
I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
I will survive
I will get over you
Cause baby I will survive
~enrique iglesias

The Demons Within

Dating..

Dating... the perfect man...
now dating is a touchy subject, especially for a woman hitting her 30's.
I was skeptic about dating again after leaving a less than honest/productive relationship
but I knew that i could not give up hope.
I am glad that i choose that route. dating is not as easy now as it once was
there are more things going on in the head now.. what kind of mate will he be? will we have
cute kids? smart kids? talented athlectic kids?
what will they inherit from either one of us? (thats the scary part!)lol
soo many things one did not think about while you were dating at the age of say 20?
if i knew then what i knew now...
i am glad that i did not give up on dating.. i refuse to give in to the negativity
i am happy that i forged on and did not close any doors.
my new job has given me the opportunity to meet many new people and help
them as well (all in a days work) and that is what i am good at
i plan and book weddings and business meetings etc.. (imagine that)
and my good samaritan in me has helped me to meet and "date" the man i am dating today. one never assumes that helping someone else can land you a date! Benchwarmers was THE BEST!! just a little fyi..
i never thought in a million years that i would "date" someone younger than me.
alas, there are many things i didnt think i would do.. thats for a later discussion...
i am having fun and seeing what the world has to offer and in the mean time,
finding my place in this world.
this man is extremely talented and athletic (and intelligent)(they do exist!!), and very mature i have found a great deal of fun in going to baseball games besides the Yankees! and in yoga
and in making new friends
all in all i couldnt be happier. except for the few weddings i do have to attend and the
ever cringing family questions "why arent you married?" "are you engaged?" "when are you going to settle down and have kids" are you people nuts!!! ((and of course i have a great date
and I didnt have to pay $6000!! but then again one can get a good bang for your buck.. ))
doesnt anyone know there is more to live than that!!
there is traveling and sex and road trips and sex and work and sex and
traveling and beaches and sex...lol!
I want to live my life to the fullest and popping out a $100k tuition
bill is NOT part of it! lol
so, as i look at the picture above i think of my "man friend" on the road traveling as
he works.. that is not him in the photo but it is damn close enough
without giving away my goods!!
the question i ask myself is can men and women be strictly plutonic? I have some males that are friends but I was told differently that men can not be... who knows..
i trust.. what do you think??
lac 2006

Saturday, April 22

The Wedding Date--- quotes of the heart




Close your eyes. Close your eyes. Close... your... eyes. You're safe. You can relax. I'm not going to kiss you. He's gonna be so sorry he lost you, so stop worrying. Forget the past. Forget the pain. And remember what an incredible woman you are. You do that and he'll realize what he lost. - Nick Mercer (The Wedding Date)

The hardest thing is loving someone and then having the courage to let them love you back. -Nick Mercer (The Wedding Date)

I'd rather fight with you than make love with anyone else. - Nick Mercer (The Wedding Date) New favorite movie**

Some new quotes that really touched my heart and wanted to share them. This is my new favorite movie... Funny thing is.. I have a wedding coming up and I am dateless.. hmmmm. Is this the new 21st Century way to do it??? lol

Thursday, April 20

Her Beauty..

"Doloroso" by Escha van den Bogerd
Her beauty shines through as she sits and poses
he paints her with a passion
missing no small details
he captures her feelings as if it were palpable
seeing her curves as if it were the first time
her lush body lies in innocence
knowing it is her one true love that watches her now
He reveals in the painting her passionate side
feeling his arousal as his memories accrue
her beauty captivates him
with every stroke
her sensuality radiating out
touching his senses~ wearing him out
he continues to paint vigorously
his feelings motivating him
her beauty captivates him
he must seek release
he finishes his painting and slowly walks to her
she turns to him at his gentle touch
and takes him in her arms
they kiss with great passion
and the two become one...
copyright 2006 lac

My Guardian Angel


he watches over me~ my Guardian Angel

he keeps me safe from harm

this is how I see...My Guardian Angel

I know he is there.. for I am still alive.

Thank you for everything Angel....

lac

Bonds of Love


the bonds of love bind them together

their trust and certainty tightening the hold

their love of each other keeps them secure

their passion and creativity failing nevermore

he holds her to him in a gentle embrace

letting her know she is in first place

they walk beside each other hand in hand

always there supporting~ he is her one man

the ocean of love swallowing them whole

never afraid to show how each one feels

their bonds of love strengthen every day

they hold each other close

knowing this could be their last day

they found the one they can live without

their one true love~now they are bound

copyright 2006 lac

A Woman's Fantasy

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more to come...in good time..

Emerging..


she emerges from her shell

reborn again into the world

as a whole new woman

her fraility noticeable

her heart patched up

her innocence charming

her love unconditional

for she knows no other kind

she emerges from her shell

to a new world

waiting in time to soak it all in

Is there a kind man

to guide her along the way?

she emerges from her shell

free of all burdens

waiting to start off fresh

to live happily once again

to live carefree...

copyright 2006 lac

Adam & Eve


"Adam and Eve" by John Enright
( a beautiful painting I wanted to share with you all)

Monday, April 3

"Not In Love" Enrique Iglesias

My future ex-husband!! He will find out soon enough..lol
This is the man in my dreams and my fantasies. This is the man I want!!! ::drool:: sigh
someday.......He will be mine...Oh yes He will be mine! haha

Video: Not In Love (feat. Kelis)
by deadhead

"Regresa Mi" Il Divo..

Now why can't I bring a man home to mom like one of these?? I KNOW she would approve!!

Video: regresa mi
by sweetsmilehoney

"If My Heart Had Wings" Faith Hill....

Video: If My Heart Had Wings
by deadhead

Friday, March 31

As I watch him from our bed...


as i watch him from our bed

my pussy gets wet, my heart starts to race

his beautiful body moves with grace

he walks towards me- I start to ache

I need him inside, filling me

feeling our love and hearts collide

we are perfect for each other

never a minute goes by when he is not on my mind

counting down when we will be with each other again

I love him with all my heart, he completes me

everytime I look at him, its like the first time

he makes my heart race and smile all the time

he completes my life

watching him from our bed, i fall in love all over again

he makes me a better woman

life is divine

as I watch him from our bed....

knowing he is all mine.

copyright 2006 lac

Cuffed

he cuffs me from behind
he blindfolds my eyes
the game begins
the eroticism takes over
my senses change
i stand there vunerable
for his eyes to see
i belong to him
i am at his mercy
he teases my pussy
endlessly
using ice and wax to torture me
i beg him to take me
i need him inside of me
he makes me ache
he makes me wait
letting me know
he is master
i beg for more
he gives in
he wants to take me and make me his
he takes me hard, he fills me
i am his
cuffed.
copyright 2006 lac

One of my fantasies....


i tie him to the tree in the vast forest
our naked bodies one with nature
his rock hard cock sticking out at me
i lick my lips hungrily
not a soul in sight or earshot
only the sounds of nature surround us
i kneel down on the soft moss in front of the tree
i grasp his cock gently
i look up at him as i lick his cock
making sure to tease him, i am the boss
licking his shaft up and down hearing his moans
seeing his frown
i giggle as i look up at him slowly pulling
my mouth away
knowing how he will soon beg
his crystal blue eyes stare down at me
pleading with mine, begging for more
i smile up and take him in
deep in my throat is where i begin
humming and sucking
i feel him throbbing, my lips tighten
i work faster as i taste his precum
i pull away to savor his taste
teasing him a little i rub him on my face
taking him back in my throat again
sucking him harder
massaging his balls
deep in my throat i take him all
he starts to cum as i suck harder
filling my mouth~swallowing his seed
he moans and screams how much he loves me
our eyes meet, no words needed
we both know we were meant to be
we will last an eternity.
copyright 2006 lac

Pathological Liars!-repost from Dec 31, 2005 to Greg Keller


There is a reason why you are asked in court to tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. It is because most of the time that is not what people do. Everyone lies sometime. There are many reasons to lie. Sometimes it is to not hurt someone's feelings. Sometimes a lie is for our own advantage. Some people lie in conducting business and in their personal lives. Most adults are aware of when they lie.
Young children sometimes have problems telling fantasy from reality. When a 3-year-old insists that he flew to Mars this morning, he may not be lying on purpose. He may not even be aware that it is a lie. Children with good imaginations often take longer to learn what a lie really is. It is important to work with children to teach them about fantasy and reality, instead of punishing them for these kinds of beliefs.
A pathological liar believes in the lies, at least at the time that she or he is talking. Their stories tend to be very dramatic. They often portray the person as being smarter, braver, more attractive, or more interesting than she or he really is. Sometimes people begin to catch onto pathological liars because of obvious flaws in the stories. A fairly young man will describe his heroics in the Vietnam war. A homely woman will talk about all the men who fell instantly in love with her. Sometimes the flaws may be more subtle and it may take a knowledgeable person to find them. Often it happens that a pathological liar will be caught out at a party by someone who really was a pilot, really lived in Africa, or really was a fashion model.
Suspect a pathological liar if:
the stories seem too dramatic or unrealistic
the lies seem to serve no purpose except to impress people or
the lies can easily be shown up
Sometimes pathological lying appears to be related to physical causes, such as problems in the brain. Other times they appear to be related to low self-esteem.

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Pathological Liars Have Different Brains

Less gray matter, more white matter seen in scans, researchers report.

By Ed EdelsonHealthDay Reporter
FRIDAY, Sept. 30 (HealthDay News) -- Looking into the brains of people who habitually cheat and lie, neuroscientists have found abnormalities in the area that controls higher thinking.
Pathological liars have less gray matter and more white matter in their prefrontal cortex, according to a report in the October issue of the British Journal of Psychiatry. Gray matter consists of the cells that do the thinking, while white matter consists of the cells that connect them.
"Our argument is that the more networking there is in the prefrontal cortex, the more the person has an upper hand in lying," said study co-author Adrian Raine, a professor of psychology at the University of Southern California (USC). "Their verbal skills are higher. They almost have a natural advantage."
This is the first report on structural brain abnormalities in pathological liars, the USC researchers said.
The study included 49 Los Angeles residents who were given psychological tests and interviews. The answers allowed the researchers to classify 12 as having a history of repeated lying, 16 who showed signs of antisocial personality disorder but not pathological lying, and 21 as average, usually honest people.
Differences in brain structure were recorded on magnetic resonance images. The liars had 25.7 percent more white matter than the antisocial people and 22 percent more than normal controls. Liars also had a 14.2 percent decrease in gray matter when compared to the controls.
That means that liars have more tools to lie and fewer moral restraints than normal people, Raine said, since this gray matter is also what experts believe controls moral behavior.
"The reduction in gray matter predisposes them to lie in the first place," he said. "The excess of white matter makes it easier for them to do it. If these liars have a 14 percent reduction in gray matter, that means they are less likely to care about moral issues or are less likely to be able to process moral issues."
The finding could eventually be used in making diagnoses of behavioral problems, and might have applications in the criminal justice system, the researchers said.
The field in which the USC researchers are working is "rapidly growing," said Diane Fishbein, a research psychobiologist at the Research Triangle Institute in Raleigh-Durham, N.C.
Fishbein has done work in "an area of research about deception in general and psychopathology in general," she said. "We are interested in what the substrates are for deception. It would be very interesting to know when someone is lying."
One of her studies found a major difference in the brain function of people who exhibited psychopathic behavior. "Most people process higher-order cognitive function with the front of the brain and emotions in the limbic system, which is lower down," she said. "Psychopaths treat emotional stimuli as if it was information, with their cognitive information processed in the limbic system."
Studies of abnormal brain function are sure to grow because "for reasons of security, there is an interest in trying to identify when people are lying," Fishbein said.


Thursday, March 30

All I Need


All I need is to share my love and life with him

all i need is to share my happiness and laughter with him

all i need is to share myself with my one true love

I need his love to match with mine

I need his happiness and joy

our lives joined as one is a life just begun

I need his touch- his sensitivity

I need his eyes- to undress me

I need his trust- explicitly

I need his hands to caress my body

I need his body to make love to mine

I need all of him- I need him to be mine

Our bodies joined as one

Our hearts entwined

Our souls melded together

Our Love Divine~

copyright 2006~ lac